waiting

As I read, Oh the Places You'll Go to Violet tonight, I realized that I am a waiter...

Waiting for the boys to get here...
Waiting for my paycheck...
Waiting for this paper or that test to be over...
Waiting for spring....
waiting to get a NEW car....
waiting for Love to be potty trained...
waiting for E to speak English...
waiting to not have to be a nurse anymore...
waiting to go work at the birth center in Denver....
waiting to sleep....
waiting to have an un-interrupted conversation with my husband
waiting to find time to finish my taxes....

I am REALLY sucking at being in the present moment!!!

This is obviously my life lesson. I'll probably live really long, because I'm not even close to practicing mindfullness. I'm too busy planning what mountains I will move.... I have so many plans and so much energy. I want to do so much. I'm interested in enough to keep me busy for 50 lifetimes.
In one life, I'd love to be Jane Goodall like. In one, I'd be an artist, in one, I'd be married to a rich doctor, in one, I'd be a rich doctor, in one life, I'd be a hospice nurse, in one life, I'd be a midwife (oh wait, that's this one), in another life, I'd be a master gardener, in one life, I'd be Hawaiian, in another, I'd work in a lab. I'd love to have big boobs in one of those lives. That would be fun. I'd definitely have to be a bad-ass in one life. It would also be fun to enjoy cooking in one life. In one life, I'd be a linguist and be fluent in at least 4 languages. I'd definitely like to be a photo-journalist (not a photographer like propping up kids with small fuzzy animals). In one life, I'd love to be one of those people that feels fine on 5 hours of sleep a night. I'd love to be Irish. I'd also like to be a man in one of those lives. It would also be fun to be an incredible athlete.... SO MANY COOL THINGS IN THIS FREAKIN' WORLD.

I'll be really sad when I die because I'm pretty sure I won't be done living yet.